Day 86 - Pondering 2009

So tonight I have actually been quite emotional, (maybe we can blame it on the weather), pondering the year that has been. My friend said its a sign of finally letting go and moving forward which is no doubt the case. I do worry about the pressure I have put on 2010 and my need for it to be amazing, I am sure I am not alone in feeling this way. I know I will just have to keep reminding myself to take every day as it comes and try and let go and just let it happen. What will be, will be. *breathe Siany...breathe*

My year in review - 2009 the year of personal growth:

• Saw the New Year in with great friends in the unbelievable city of Tokyo.
• Skied for the first time in my life in Niseko.
• Realised how much stronger I am now, and that I only need myself.
• Helped Husbo go through the most horrible, messiest and expensive business partnership break-up.
• Was without my little Getzy girl for 3 months thanks to a car crash I had the end of 2008 which was total utter hell.
• Realised that I am a "fixer" when it comes to friends and people in general and seem to have a scary history of attracting these types into my life, which sadly often results in take, take take and me being emotionally drained.
• Kept my personal goal I set a few years back to stop doing things I don't want to do (within reason).
• Cut back on alcohol and drove a lot more instead.
• Had the best Hen's day/night ever, I love my friends and family soooo much and everyday feel well and truly blessed to have them in my life and for the support they have given me, especially this past year!! Thank you girlies for my Hen's and everything years before and everything to come that you have been, or will be, a part of. I love you.
  
• My Grandpa sadly passed away on the eve of our wedding. R.I.P Grandpa. :(
• Got married, which honestly was the first day Husbo and I managed to somehow let everything go that had happened to us during the lead up to this day and honestly had the most magical time.
• Went to Fiji for our Honeymoon - forced relaxation, which is a first for us, as we are the go, go, go type when it comes to holidays, so being on an Island where there is VERY limited options, no tv/radio/internet, limited power (only a few hours a day thanks to generators) and people (only one other couple was on the Island with us) was hard to take in at first!! LOL
• Changed my last name which I am STILL struggling with (seriously, it gives you an identity crisis LOL).
• Painfully rid myself of all the takers/toxic friends in my life, some of who were very close to me, but it had to happen.
• Made some new friends - the gorgeous TwitBella's who have been a freaking amazing support network and I truly adore.
• Fell back in love with nail polish (thanks to the above).
• Started this blog, which has been a lot of fun (sorry for not updating it daily) and will be a wonderful memento to look back on.
• Actually paid for a magazine subscription for the first time in my life!! LOL
• Got into Twitter which I now LOVE and way prefer it to Facebook. #lovesit
  
• Curbed my spending SO much due to car/wedding/business break-up debt.
• Started working on a side project to help keep my "crafty" side and me personally happy.
• Enjoyed a freaking awesome long weekend in Melbourne.
• Saw Lady Gaga, Pussycat Dolls and Pearl Jam in concert.
• Got me an iPhone, yes, it has changed my life.
  
• Continued my love and obsession with my pets and animals in general.
• Realised how freaking fast this year has gone, but I am grateful in some ways too because sadly for me, too much of the last half (hell) of 2008 was brought into this year, so I am honestly ready for a brand new year that starts off bright and sparkly. 2010 BRING IT!! xx